i feel bad not wanting to live a long life. i think living long sux. that sounds sinful. but life is one series of pain after another. no one is immune to sickness. it's hard to live life. i think we commit more sins too being alive. when others find fault with us, for any reasons, we'd have to fight back, or at least defend. that doesn't feel good, and feels like a sin as well. two wrongs do not make a right.
i think, as long as we are alive, the chances of doing bad is greater than doing good. because when one wants to do good, people around takes that for weakness, and that opens the channel for them to take advantage of.
even in business, when i am nice, people take advantage, and then i have to put my foot down.
so, that's how some businesses end up impersonal. commercialised if one may call it. lay everything in rules. no turning. and everyone gets on fine. we humans are such stupid creatures.