some people learn fast. i took too long. if only i had mustered some skills way back, i would be in a better life situation. i was way too emotive then. but again i guess, it takes some kind of rough going to get a new hide.  i had erroneously thought that being nice was the way to go in handling businesses. i paid a heavy price, way too heavy. if i pull through this mess and come out a golden duck, i WILL write a book. okayyyy, i will just blog about it. lol.  i will not want to be that golden duck that got slaughtered for the golden egg though. i will rewrite history for that golden goose. ah, that was a golden goose not duck. duh.